Had a lovely meal out the other night with my family to say goodbye to Chloe, slight delay eating as on arrival hubby realised he had left his wallet at home so he left me and the girls to drive 20 minutes to get it.
Yesterday Chloe and myself were invited out to lunch with Chloe,s boss to say goodbye to her. Lynne has been more than a boss to her, she has been there when things got tough at home and she did stay there temporarily so we could all sort some differences out at times. I know Lynne looks at her as the daughter she never had and I felt really sad for her because I know she doesn't want Chloe to go. So we had a lovely afternoon first in the restaurant last out.
I was supposed to go the caravan afterwards but I was exhausted after getting home. This is something I have noticed recently that although I love socialising and seeing friends within a few hours I,m shattered. I know my stamina is down a few levels and I cannot drink very much anymore. I can be drunk very easily on 1 or 2 drinks this is apparently a side effect of Tamoxifen. I am going away this weekend to stay with friends and see "Take That" and I am really concerned about how tired I am at the moment. I really don't want to be a party pooper but I seem to hit the wall very quickly at the moment.
I had a week of being Tamoxifen free so the doctor could see if the nausea disappeared and it did. It was a lovely week in the fact everything was clearer again in my head, I was not waking up with a hangover even when I had not had a drink and I was more rational than emotional. I am now 3 day in again and its all starting again my head is full of really thick cotton wool today and I,m hungover. I am meeting somebody today who has been on Tamoxifen for 4 years so I have got plenty of questions to ask her.
I am determined to go into my kitchen and do some baking today, as I have promised to take some cakes tomorrow and the kids asked me to make them lasagna ( I have not cooked for months). So I will now drag myself to the shower and get myself motivated.