Saturday, 16 July 2011

Thankfully the end is near, I only have 1 week of radiotherapy left and its a relief. I am really struggling with the journey, the tiredness, the inconvenience but most of all the pain. I am burnt, itchy and tender and the only products you can use that have zilch chemicals in them are useless. It looks as though someone has stuck an iron over my breast its actually the same shape as an iron and hurts as much. I just want it all to be over now so that I can completely heal from the 2 surgery's and this. 

I made a decision yesterday to get the work finished and give my house a blitz so that today I have nothing to do except what I want too. I plan to make a chocolate cake and watch movies. More work will be coming in today from holiday changeovers but it can go in the van and stay there till tomorrow. I need a day without work or hospital. The weather is awful too, its one of those days when you just want to cosy up inside and do nothing, Perfect!!

The caravan project is coming along, she's stripped, sanded and the first coat of paint has been applied. The fabric has been bought but there is a few weeks delay on one of the rolls as they did not have enough. Its amazing how much fabric a caravan needs, I have chosen Clarke and Clarke because there fabric is so pretty and its cheaper than Cath Kidston. 

The running is going OK, but each run is getting harder and slower. I know there are very good reasons for this. The main one being my appetite is not good at the moment so I,m not taking on enough fuel. I do not know if this is because of the treatment but I just cannot eat anything after lunch time with out feeling sick. I will pop to the supermarket today and see if there is anything that really appeals to me to break this cycle.

Hopefully in my next post I will have some photos of the updated caravan, so you can see a difference.


  1. You poor thing! Do you not think you need to slow down a bit and let your body recover!? I suppose that maybe it helps you to get through it all, by keeping going. However, the fact that you were doing everything yesterday so you can rest today.................just rest -you are going thru so much at the mo!!

    Keep calm and RELAX!

  2. I have the opposite problem to you - my appetite is raging - I know it's because I am cycling and that it makes me feel starving all the time - normally I keep it under control but today it's a bit hard ...the weather makes me want to eat and eat and eat to feel all cozy comfy.

    Honestly if it were me who'd had cancer I'd be a total wuss and not bother with housework. What am I saying? I don't bother with it anyway.
    You are amazing Clare - hope your day is turning out good, chocolate cake and all.

    Oh and yes Clarke and Clarke make lovely fabric (I made my MIL some new curtains using one of their fabrics - a vintage rose trellis design in pink and white). Very pretty stuff they have. Your caravan will look smashing.