All I can say is today ended not as I expected, and unfortunately not in a good way.
I did spend the weekend at the caravan just to get over the infection and have some peace and quiet because my house is not always quiet. I only came home today as I had to go to the hospital for a check up on the infected wound. So off I went with Su as Darren has had to go to work for a few days, it was all very relaxed and we had a nice pub lunch. We then go to the hospital for the appointment.
All I expected was a quick in and out but I was actually there 2 1/2 hrs. The doctor called me in and after I,d sat down he started discussing the operation and the lump and the removal, while I,m just sat there thinking he's got confused here as I've had my post op appointment 2 weeks after surgery. So I was polite and I let him carry on and he's telling me about why I had the cancer and my margins and I,m really thinking has he got me mixed up with someone else its just a wound infection and you haven't even mentioned it yet. So then he starts talking about having to carry out more surgery and I had to stop him. I told him I,m really confused but what are you talking about.
They have just got some lab results back and they don't think my margins are clear and they think there are some pre cancerous cells left behind. So I,m now booked in for surgery on Monday for more tissue removal.
He did eventually check the wound and found a stitch was infected which has been removed, but to be honest they are going to remove my old scar next week so what difference would it make. I,m can't be annoyed with the doctor or nurses as they are lovely people but some warning might have helped.
So to say I was shocked was an understatement, this is the first time through the whole process I have been shocked because Iv,e always prepared myself before hand. So at least it has taken my mind of the results on wed for the chemo. I just wish it was all over it just seems to be taking forever to get through this.
Oh you poor poor thing! I bet Monday seems so long away as well!?! and that there will be nothing else on your mind until then.
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Hiya Clare,
ReplyDeleteCarol said you have been having treatment. I just wanted to let you know that we're all thinking of you. Love from Sue, Mark, Caitlin and Connor xxxx
Hi Sue, thats lovely to hear from you, its been years since I saw you I think Connor was a baby. Thanks for your kind words I know you understand what I,m going through. Its great having Carol there for mum as she understands whats happening to me, she's very knowledgeablexx
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ReplyDeletebeen trying to phone to see how you got on today but you was engaged so came on here bit of a shock not what I expected I'll be glad when its all over I'll phone later
Yes that must have been a horrid shock. I'm sorry you had to go through such a lousy experience. You seem very brave and stoical though. And it's good that the doctor is being thorough - even though it could have been handled a lot better.
ReplyDeleteI know I don't know you but hugs anyway. Crossing fingers it all goes well.
Thanks everybody for your support and kind words it really does helpxxx
ReplyDeleteHi, just came across your blog! We both have happy blogs and so have something in common! I am your latest follower too! love Annie x
ReplyDeleteIt does seem like forever, believe me I know, you will get through all the horridness soon, patience and willpower will be your best friends at the moment! Take care of yourself, you are so amazingly strong from the sounds of things, keep it up! xxx
ReplyDeleteOh im so sorry about the unexpected news, take care of yourself and will send you loads of positive thoughts. Mwah Scarlett x
ReplyDeleteAww bless ya babe, am a bit slow on catching up on my blog reading at the mo as I have a friend staying with me, what a pain in the ar*e for you honey, this cancer lark is just a load of cr*p innit? Honestly, we wait ages for results & then something always happens in the meantime, just when we think we're getting to grips with it all. Thinking of ya chick & good luck for results tomorrow. I'm gonna keep checking back to see how u get on. Lotsa Love Chez. xx
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I've been thinking so much about you....I am just sick about the way you were informed about the margin findings...I was in health care for many years, as an operating room surgical scrub nurse...I worked for a long time in a breast center which at the time was a new concept. Dr. Susan Love started the center and she was one of the first in the states to do only breast surgeries and to have mostly female doctors doing the care and surgeries. I was very proud to be a part of that and I can tell you that the way you were informed just makes me sick..that does not mean however that your care is not good it is just that they need a major overhaul in their patient interactions. I am so sorry you are going through this in such turmoil . It is difficult under the best of circumstances. BUT at least they did find the margins were not clear and that will be corrected . That does happen quite often ..hang on to that..sorry to be so long winded but I think about you so often and I know you will get through this...big big hugs from across the very cold pond today..
ReplyDeleteThank you Miss Holly I have to agree with you it was delivered wrong and to be honest it was a different team who found the lab results as it had been missed. This is the reason its been done at week 7 post op just as the old surgery has healed. Getting angry wont help I find just smiling and thinking positive thoughts is only way through this.
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