Monday 4 April 2011

So today I went to the hospital to have a a check up and make sure my lymph nodes had tested clear. I was under the impression weeks ago that they would be fine and they are, I was also told I wouldn't need chemo just radiotherapy. I,m pretty sure the nurse said words to the effect "it's a done deal" So I was hoping today I would get a vague timetable of when radiotherapy and tamoxifen would be starting, I like to be in control and organised and know whats going to be happening. 

Maybe I,m naive cos its not a done deal and I have to wait for more tests and I may have to have chemo if the oncologist thinks it going to be beneficial. So I,m still uncertain what happens next and I,m fed up. I'm not depressed just fed up and obviously I would like to know I don't need chemo. I shall now wait for my appointment with the oncologist which will hopefully be soon.  I apologise for being miserable I know I will be fine tomorrow, it dosen't take me long to bounce back.

7 comments:

  1. Ah bless you! I know exactly where you are coming from! I am very organised and have to plan ahead...............and just when you thought you would be given all the final dates and info - it is back to the waiting game again! Which means no planning can be done!!
    Well I am thinking of you and hope that they hurry up with the appointments - they must realise how important it is for people to have the info quickly!?!
    Lets hope that the lovely sunshine hangs around and that it will help with making you feel a bit happier!
    Big hugs!
    -x-

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  2. So sorry your feeling fed up...I can totally understand..it's a case of " leave me alone! " I would guess... I hope tomorrow is better....it does sound like a very good prognosis. That is really good news....so try to hang on that ....

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  3. Fingers crossed Claire that Chemo is not necessary..and it must be hard to not do stuff when you have it ingrained in you..listen to your body though, it will let you know when to rest..Cup cakes!! Yum..wish I lived closer!
    Thinking of you honey..keep your chin up and love the blog..

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  4. Hi Clare! Yes, it's uncanny we seem to be in the same boat! Have tried to send u a personal message but can't for some reason?! Couldn't find a link to it on here. Anyways, good luck with the rest of ur treatment, I'll be following ur blog! Love Chez. xx

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  5. All fingers and toes crossed for you here. Lots of love and well wishes xxx

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  6. Yep - crossing all that needs to be crossed - especially that you won't need chemo...I hope you're feeling cheerier today.

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  7. You'll be fine soon my dear. Just let all the positive vibes feed you. According to the secret, positive attracts. It's basically mind over matter. But of course, anything can be done with the help of our dear creator.

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